Come On Up To The House

We are going to Dallas today to visit Chris's sister Julie! Our first roadtrip with the baby. We come back tomorrow and then Holden has his first babysitting experience (thanks Alicia!) while Chris and I go see Santogold at Stubbs. Going to be a fun few days full of firsts for the boy.

So I've recently discovered that Holden is a musical savant. At the very least he is so in love with music that it is honestly the only thing that I know will calm him down instantly. Even more so than food. I'm serious. I have been packing for the last hour and he sat in front of the stereo listening to the entire Nirvana Unplugged album. It is on its last song now and he is still listening intently in his chair (which he normally hates). Whether it is my singing to him or dancing with him or him just sitting there unstimulated aside from music, he will dance or sit entranced. I honestly have never seen anything like it in a person this young. His attention span is supposed to be 30 seconds or so? The mere fact of this, of his incredible love for music so young, makes me feel so damn lucky. Chris and I both consider music to be such a vital part of who we are and our life together couldn't be recalled without my thinking of the songs we were listening to at each specific time period. He is such a perfect conglomerate of us. He is more incredible than I ever could have imagined. I just feel so lucky to have such a talented little person in my midst. And I get to keep him for as long as he'll let me...which is the hardest part for me to realize. I can't believe I get him in my life forever. No one comes to get him at the end of the day. What a lucky hand I've drawn...getting to spend my life with the two best men in the world. It makes me so paranoid too...I feel like one person can not be so lucky and I am so scared that some karmic balancing act will intervene and disturb our happy nest. I suppose there isn't anything that can be done if that does indeed occur and I should just enjoy these times without concern. All right, I am going to go kiss on the boy while you watch some video footage of his loveliness and my morning singing voice which is not as lovely.