Love Train

Holden,

We are on a love train! At least that is what it feels like. Everyone keeps talking about how lovely you are going to be and how excited they are to meet you and celebrate your existence at the upcoming baby shower (of which my only part planning is the date and the names list and the demands that it be co-ed and have available alcohol for the non-preggos since there is no reason others can't drink just b/c I am pregnant!) Thank you to my lovelies: Tammany, Ellen and Shanon for coordinating what I am sure will be a majestic time never to be forgotten, even for a harebrained preggo like me! And thank you to Courtney and Lesley for looking over my registries with an expert Mommy eye. I can't even describe how blessed I feel to have such wonderful people in my lives.

I put in my notice at work today. Sad faces abound but mostly "I am jealous, you biotch!" but in good natured tones. 2/12 the last day of work until when.....? It is going to be a change going from getting a paycheck every month for the majority of my adult life to getting paid in love from our little family! But I am so excited about this opportunity to focus just on you and Daddy for a while.

Did I mention I can't wait to meet you? Yes? Oh well I will say it again:

I
Can't
Wait
to
Meet
You.

I can barely stand it. I can already tell a bit about your personality, the kind of music you like to dance to when I sing. You LOVE the Righteous Brothers, hahaha. Soul and passion, huh? Where does that come from? ;) Oh and the pasta, you love the pasta. And every time I get up in the morning to inevitably pee you wake up and throw a little fit at my deflating your cushion. Sorry.

Passports are attained! Our pictures are hawt! The post officer (haha is that a word?) said that it wasn't fair that they are so good. Darn tootin'! It takes a few weeks for them to come in but then we will be set to tour the British Virgin Islands, Mexico, and wherever else our little hearts take us. I think of you bundled up, used to the new sights, taking in the world with the eye of a world-traveler, continually in wonderment. And me, your Mom, watching you watch the world, my own world expanding with the witness of yours. You will know how to snorkel and sail and fish and love and be held for hours at a time and to identify the constellations and which one is Taurus like you and to sit back, listen to the water, and be at peace with your place in the universe.

I wish so much for you and all that you aspire to be. I feel so lucky to be able to watch you become the amazing individual you are to be.

You are flurrying as I write this. You must agree. You must love me too:)

Mama